I pulled off my longest sigh as I captured myself dozing off in front of my laptop. I hardly slept due to the fact that I had to have two exams in one day. Both of them were amazingly difficult. I always thought about not giving a fuck and slept instead. But I felt that there was this little voice whispering me to keep striving, no matter how hard it seemed. One of my friend bbm-ed me in the morning and told one of the nicest thing to me. She encouraged me with the good words and uplifting wisdom. I was terribly nervous and blessed at the same time. I have not had people saying those inspiring supports and knowing that it came from her meant a lot to me. What she did was like a God’s way of making me strong. To strengthen my weak body. To lift up my enthusiasm. I believe that GOD never sleeps. He was and is always there to listen to me. He listens every bit of my annoying nags and rants and complaints. There was a time when I felt like I was questioning His existence. How he got me in so many troubles and I felt like giving it all up was the only thing left in my mind. I truly learn that I should surrender more to Him because He is the helping hand. I have always thought that other people have a better lives than mine. They are so fulfilled and the only problem that they had was about all dating, boys like girls stuff or even the tiniest unimportant stuff like miscommunication. That made me question how they got everything so easy while I had to struggle and work my butt off to do this and that. I complaint a lot about literally anything. And I had no one to talk to. It was not that I was too pussy to spit it out but they would never understand and not even give a damn about me. I kept it all inside that I sometimes got so frustrated. I honestly felt sorry for myself. I knew it would not change a thing. What I sincerely learnt from today is that God’s help is never too late. He works in a very mysterious way. Keep believing in HIM :)