QUOTE OF THE DAY

" Be aspiring. Change people's lives while you still can. Life is not about self-seeking and self-focusing. Stop walking on the sidewalk. You're more than capable of crossing the street."

SHEILA SAVITRI SETIADI

• She's my day-to-day bitching sweetheart :)

• She's a very close friend

• She accepts my flaws and faults

• She knows me very well even she knows the size of my genital organ :P

• She keeps it real

• She's fiercee

• Words cannot even describe how i admire her

I am basically naked when i am with her cause she knows everything about me. By saying " everything " i mean every single thing. She's not the judgemental type. She has different perspective about life. Like she said, she's not that stereotypical girl who looks things from one point of view. She's a bad-ass bitch. She has a kick-ass brother. She's ehhhmmm effing smart. I don't know why is that cause if you look her, you prolly think that she's the kind who doesn't give a shit about life and arrogant. Instead, she's the exact opposite. That's what i admire the most about her. She knows priority and can manage to keep up the good grades and good relationship with surroundings.

Just so you know, i hate you bitch! Kidding, I efffing love you :*

Blessed

I am blessed. Gua gak bisa berpikir banyak tentang segala kekurangan gua. Jujur gua sekarang ada di titik dimana gua ngerasa "untuk hidup aja adalah sebuah anugerah yang luar biasa". Hidup gua gak jauh dari yang namanya kata "sempurna". Dan itu yang membuat gua bisa bergantung sepenuhnya pada my beloved daddy in the heaven. I learnt how to depend fully on him. Just let him lift up my burden. Yes! He's The Lord who won't let His people suffer. Ada banyak perkara yg Tuhan tlah campur tangan dalam hidup gua. President University scholarship, Sekolah di Hope, dikenal banyak orang and He even makes me do something that's beyond my imagination. Dia ngebantu gua untuk mengalahkan ketidak-percayadirian gua. Gua slalu jadi orang yang malu dan gak mau membaur dengan komunitas. Tapi DIA bikin gua menang dari ketakutan gua. Gua berani jadi host buat graduation aja udah satu step yang luar biasa untuk overcome ketakutan,

And as i am walking in HIS ways, i find that He's faithful and trust-worthy. HE'S ALWAYS THERE. Note that! No matter how devastating you are.

confusing

I am not an expert when it comes to dealing with love. All i know about love is it should be unconditional. Loving not only for the good things, instead you have to accept the bad things you see in your partner. Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.That's what i know when i read the Scripture. I find it hard for me to understand the truest meaning of love. i love her. Truly. I'd wake up early in the morning just to meet her, i lied to my parents so i get the chance to have a deserted dinner in the corner of the restaurant. i sacrificed so much to be with her. She's all i can think of. i don't really think she feels the same way. i am afraid. i fear of losing her. On the other side, i don't want to be the possesive boyfriend that always cages her and lets her having life in hell for not doing things that she wants to do. No. I am not that kind. i respect her, her job and her interest. i will always support her no matter what. But she never seems caring about my life. My struggles, issues that are going on, my interest, my fears, my favorite movie. I need someone that can really be my friend. The one who stays in my conviction. The one who's willing to be there till the end. The one who cherishes me when i am having a bad day. You know, the one who supports me in everything i work on, a best friend, a partner to live with. I give it all to her. How could she care less?

Sometimes, all i need is a warm hug and a voice whispering "You are safe with me. I love you." Someone who knows me deeply enough to accept my imperfections. I am nothing but the reckless guy. I need attention. I need someone who looks after me. Who loves me indeed. i just want you to be there when i need you. I love you so much. It sounds like a bull. But it comes from inside and i know it's very sincere. I love you.

EMILLY GRIFFIN

"I love him wholly and unconditionally and without reservation. I love him enough to sacrifice a friendship. I love him enough to accept my own happiness and use it, in turn, to make him happy back."
— Emily Giffin (Something Borrowed)

There is no better audience for someone in love than someone in love."
— Emily Giffin (Something Borrowed)

"He was uncomplicated and upbeat and easy. At one point, I might have thought these traits made him a simpleton, but now I think they just translate to happiness."
— Emily Giffin (Baby Proof)

A groomsman

i don't know why i am always choosen to be a groomsman for the wedding. I've done this for like eleven times and the first one i remembered was my uncle's wedding. It's fun but exhausting. I gotta trail the groom and hold the microphone everytime he's about to speak his vow. My toes are in pain and so are my back. How could they make me stand up for two hours wedding ceremony holding the microphone and stuff. The saddest part is when the thing is done, we're like invisible because audiences are focused only to the groom and the bride. I feel like a living mannequin up there.

The closest wedding is on this Sunday. The funny thing is the groom and I share the same name. His name is Daniel Andreas Pauned. What a coincidence! :D That could be one of the reason why they picked me in the very first place :) HAHAHA! I am just hoping that the wedding will be running smoothly and no distractions. Gotta practice my walk and there WILL BE NO CLUMSINESS. My fingers fucked, i meant crossed.

XOXO