June 17th 2011

i am officially going from single in to a relationship. Yes, today was the day. I've never expected that would actually happen. i was planning to tell you more about how did it happen and who was it and questioning stuff. But then i realise, it's way too private to tell you guys about this. I just need to say this : I love this person so much. I don't give a goddamn shit about what people think about it.

DSH >3 RH

QUOTE OF THE DAY

" Life's short. Take bad decisions. Do mistakes. Be reckless. Challenge yourselves. That's what makes life worthwhile. "

GRADUATION

It's been a long time since i posted the last archive. It's June 10th which was one of the most nerve-wrecking days in my life. IT'S GRADUATION FREAKING DAY. Huh! I was picked by Mr. Julius to be the host for the graduation which i firstly thought was ridiculous. C'mon! I am not one of those boys whom can talk really loud, be happy-go lucky and invitingly smiley all the time. I am not them. Kayaknya Mr. Julius lagi drunk waktu milih gue. Whatever! I was paired up with Vanessa. She's relieved it was me that Sir Julius picked. We tried to make a sexy dynamic duo. It was an actual obstacle for me. People expect and set high expectation on us. I tried my hardest to be a pro MC but it was sort of failed. We were kind of all over the place. We were so nervous and my hands were shaky. There were some changes in the last minutes which i thought was crazy and frustrating. There were some moments when we really got used to it and let loose. And there were moments when we were like speechless, "i don't what to say" moments, death silence and stuff. But on top of that, i stepped it out. I walked it out and i actually did pwetty good. Mr. Aaron even whispered me, " You did a pretty good job. You're so good. " Now i'm feeling so fly like a G6, like a G6 ta ra ta ta ta ta...

I had fun and i had a good time. Really. Hahaha! Anyway, i saw people graduating and leaving the school for next year. They are going to abroad, study there and meet new people. I envy them. I am not trying to discourage myself and complain about that and that. I feel like there's part inside my heart, i want to be like them. Having a good life, go to school they want, have people loving them, they are beautiful people with extraordinary life. They are just so perfect. I talk too much. Forgive me for being ungrateful, Oh Lord.

I am just gonna have to stay focused on my studies and continue my senior year in HOPE INTL SCHOOL. I hope there are new students coming in the next school year. :(