Sometimes, I feel like life has treated me unfair. For some of people, it always seems so simple. They are so “fulfilled”. I couldn’t hold on to that thought any longer. But then it all comes back to one simple thought. Why would I even be giving a crap about being fulfilled and enriched with something that lasts? Some people are head over heels about looking fancy and getting all dolled so they can finally be accepted by certain groups. Self-pity. The way I see it, it’s almost like all go back together to high school. Fame, popularity and good reputation. Who actually gives a shit about what happened to you if you didn’t have any of those. You know, you won’t have that kind of attention unless you’re good looking and exceptionally smart. That’s a human nature. Everyone without even realizing that would do the same. I’ve come to thinking that picking friends is as essentially complicated as picking shoes with the right size. Friends would fade, true friends would stay all the way through the bads and goods, the ups and downs, and somewhere inbetween.

Kan-jen

I wish . .

Would like to share some of my thought that have been bothering me for the last couple of weeks. Okay, I have been mindfucked with the fact that I couldn’t afford to pay the tuition fee. Like Omaygash, I couldn’t think of any solution and quite frankly, I almost couldn’t sleep by just having it pass through my mind. The fee is expensive, I must say. And I think there’s no way I could pay it right away. I am frustrated. That I can say for sure. All I think about right now is my family and making them happy is what I aim for. To be in university and to be graduated there is one of the ways for me to make a better living. I desperately need money. I don’t know if I can get through this. You know, I am holding on to my faith and I certainly believe that Miracles do happen. It passes through my mind that I should get a part-time job. I blew my chance on being a teacher that I failed to pass the interview. I didn’t know what I could possibly if I were to get a job. I am crossing every finger and hoping everything will go just right. I solely depend on My God. He’s the only helping hand that I can count on. :’)

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“It is the way I’m feeling I just can’t deny. But I’ve gotta let it go.” I think I have to let go regardless of how madly crazy this feeling is I have been keeping. The thing is I can’t have you. More like there ain’t no way. Wouldn’t say I am not devastated but I kinda am. Being single and pretty much going through life where single is kinda miserable IS definitely no good. As much as I want to deny this, I am pretty much a sucker when it comes to romance. I mean, love is a hella wonderful feeling. Hey, I’ve been in love and it was definitely a joy that I triumphed. Anyway, I have got the chance so many remarkable movies this week. From My Week With Marilyn all the way to War Horse. Michelle Williams is as stunningly brilliant as she portrayed a troubled slash iconic slash famous Marilyn Monroe. I am fascinated by all the gestures, talking and even her movement. War Horse is as aspiring as any movie could have been. I thoroughly enjoyed the two movies, though. Nothing much happens this week though except knowing the fact that I’ll be having final exam semester 2. Everything has been a rollercoaster for me. You know the uni stuff, everything just happens to be fast. Ehm, what else should I write? I guess it’s the end then.