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Nothing could ever replace you

You have always been the sun when there goes darkness

You captivated me

I remembered when we had silly talk and you stopped talking

You kissed me and i swear to GOD

That was so lovely

I could spend a day without thinking to go to shower

I have been away from you

I feel like the idea of we are being apart is torturing

As much as i want to cuddle with you

I know i couldn't

I miss you, missing you insane

haventsleptanddecidedtoblog

Loneliness has always been a friend of mine. I used to enjoy my indulgent time where i travel everywhere by myself. And it has taken me further to unknown world that only belongs to me. I used to hate being in crowd. I did not like attention. I always wish people would not notice my existence. As pathetic as it might sound, but i gotta admit that i have left my past behind. It was not time that changed me to be the person who I am today. I'd say community and the urge to become more independent that led me. Being adjusted with whole new environment was a lot to take for me. I could not care less and act as i am in the home. I grew up learning that everything has to be earned, not given. I am pretty much confident in figuring thing out and being responsible. Having a lot of pressures also did help me to get better. Mentally and psychologically. I learnt about people and how I adapt myself to be likeable. Not neccesary being fake but more becoming tolerant and respectful. I am always gonna be the person you can relate to. I have been through a lot of things back then and you would not even have thought that i have done some of those. I have a huge respect to those who are discriminated against race, gender, sexuality and religion. It might come across a bit sensitive but hey if you ever wanna talk about it, i am here :3 I am not that stereotypical person that often times judges you .

QUOTE OF THE DAY

" Be aspiring. Change people's lives while you still can. Life is not about self-seeking and self-focusing. Stop walking on the sidewalk. You're more than capable of crossing the street."

SHEILA SAVITRI SETIADI

• She's my day-to-day bitching sweetheart :)

• She's a very close friend

• She accepts my flaws and faults

• She knows me very well even she knows the size of my genital organ :P

• She keeps it real

• She's fiercee

• Words cannot even describe how i admire her

I am basically naked when i am with her cause she knows everything about me. By saying " everything " i mean every single thing. She's not the judgemental type. She has different perspective about life. Like she said, she's not that stereotypical girl who looks things from one point of view. She's a bad-ass bitch. She has a kick-ass brother. She's ehhhmmm effing smart. I don't know why is that cause if you look her, you prolly think that she's the kind who doesn't give a shit about life and arrogant. Instead, she's the exact opposite. That's what i admire the most about her. She knows priority and can manage to keep up the good grades and good relationship with surroundings.

Just so you know, i hate you bitch! Kidding, I efffing love you :*

Blessed

I am blessed. Gua gak bisa berpikir banyak tentang segala kekurangan gua. Jujur gua sekarang ada di titik dimana gua ngerasa "untuk hidup aja adalah sebuah anugerah yang luar biasa". Hidup gua gak jauh dari yang namanya kata "sempurna". Dan itu yang membuat gua bisa bergantung sepenuhnya pada my beloved daddy in the heaven. I learnt how to depend fully on him. Just let him lift up my burden. Yes! He's The Lord who won't let His people suffer. Ada banyak perkara yg Tuhan tlah campur tangan dalam hidup gua. President University scholarship, Sekolah di Hope, dikenal banyak orang and He even makes me do something that's beyond my imagination. Dia ngebantu gua untuk mengalahkan ketidak-percayadirian gua. Gua slalu jadi orang yang malu dan gak mau membaur dengan komunitas. Tapi DIA bikin gua menang dari ketakutan gua. Gua berani jadi host buat graduation aja udah satu step yang luar biasa untuk overcome ketakutan,

And as i am walking in HIS ways, i find that He's faithful and trust-worthy. HE'S ALWAYS THERE. Note that! No matter how devastating you are.