shitty poem

Hey you there..

I am dying here

I don’t how am I gonna do it without you

I am tired of being tough and strong

When the inside I feel so vulnerable and defenseless

You are the one I look up to you

Why are you not even bothered to say hi?

Maybe that’s it for you

But for me, all the memories we had seem hard to bury

You shaped me

You gave me hope

You shook up my world

Please don’t leave me

ANN WARD : ITALIAN VOGUE beauty spread

As part of her prizes for the high fashion cycle, Ann was awarded a Beauty in Vouge cover, along with editorial shoot. In addition, she will be featured in a high editorial layout in Italian Vouge, which can be seen in Vogue Italia website.

I'm no fashion expert nor fashion professional critics but since I'm a big fan of her, I would like to share my thoughts on her photos with you guys. Me loving these photos. Okay, I get it, she does look weird and awkward, BUT in a good way. I have read comments from people who were viewing the photos and there was this girl and she said these photos are the example how Nicole Kidman's and Gollum's love child looks like. What a stupid thing to say. That is so senseless and blunt.

Me loving these photos of Ann, and that is what matters. People say she's not gonna sell anything because she's awkwardly high but I say different. Beauty is subjective. Oh, check out what Tyra has to say regarding Ann being gawky-pretty.

a drug that barely kills me *literally*

take me, leave me, hold me uptight..
you're the one that i want
how could you leave me half-wrecked
bearing all the pain you've marked

falling for you was a huge mistake
i couldnt help but wonder
do i still have to regret it ?
when letting go is the only option i had

thinking love is the sweetest feeling ever
is like licking your own shit
shit happens
and you're just damn a fool to let it be

after all we had
only gratitude i kept inside deep in my heart
that you won't fucking hurt me anymore
i move on...

Making the puppet show for Twelfth Night

Henri, Echa , Steph , Nat and I were working on the puppet show production of Twelfth Night :)






the cast of twelfth night : SIR TOBY, FABIAN, MALVOLIO, SIR ANDREW , MARIA

Being a homeless kiddo for one day :)

OKAY.

This is my first experience to do something that I'd say challenging yet new for me. It happened on T****** :] * I won't give specific date and time bcos its classified * (smirk).

Yep. I was planning to be a homeless for one day. The real purpose of doing this crazy thing is because I feel like I'm spoiled kid, I feel like I've always got wht I want *not really sih* but yaa, I feel like I'm living in the comfort zone where everything seems easily happened for me. For some reasons, I also think tht I'm type of person who doesn't know wht the appropriate meaning of "hard-work".

In order to testify how hard-working I am. I'm doing this. Actually, I lied to my parents *topsecret* abt me sleeping over my fren house. I didn't sleep over instead I'm travelling around bogor by foot. How cool is that? Hahahahahhaha.

Yep, I left the house @ 10 am then directly I went to the warnet nearby my old house, deket Cimahpar situ. Yep,I went there by walking. Its tiring bcos the weather was being shitty at that time. Grrrrrrrr. it was rainy but it was also shiny. Totally made my head went dizzy. Yeppp then I reached there turned out the warnet was officially closed bcos sepi. Grrrrrrr---- I was drenching in sweat bcos it was su-duper sultry. then continued my journey to Botani Square. I ate paket 10 thou nya cfc.hahaha. Ngirit. I spent lyk s hours @ Botani. Then sore-nya gw hunting dvd ;p HAHAHA. i went to the 3 different places. and i walked gak pake angkot or ojeg. trus abis itu i spent like 4 hours di warnet deket quantum. HAHAHAHA. lumayan sambil ngenet sambil nyumput.


Sekitar jam 09.00 malem gua udahan ngenet terus gua jalan jalan terus gak berhenti sampe akhirnya gua stop di surabi buat makan. BUT SOMETHING happened. gua ketemu si OKKY. WTF??? then i was rushing to go other places. dan gua nemu satu tempat rada gelap. bagus tuh buat untuk tidur rada gelap. SUMPAH! i was freakin' out everytime i saw people passing by. ada preman, orang gila, kucing , tikus dan segala macem. ALL I KNOW is worries. THERE WAS NO SAFETY TOBE A HOMELESS. gua nyadar banget waktu gua berada didalam posisi ini. trus gua ngerasa gak aman. gua cari tempat yang lebih aman lagi. gua jalan menyusuri jalan pajajaran dan gua sempet berhenti di satu tempat then again gua ngerasa gak nyaman disitu.

Gua udah ngerasa kaki gua sakit banget ,pernah sampe ada bapa bapa nawarin gua naik motor disangka gua cewe. LOL abis. trus gua nyari akhirnya ketemu di deket siliwangi situ gua tidur disitu sampe jam 3. orang orang pada bingung karena baju gua bagus banget. HEHEHE.

trus jam 3 pagi gua jalan antah berantah sampe tugu. gua nunggu tuh sampe jam 6 trus pas jem 6 gua minta dijemput deh ma bokap and THEY DIDNT FIND OUT WHERE I WAS.
THE LESSONLEARNT is "gua harus mulai bersyukur dengan apa yang gua punya. gua harus mulai menghargai apa yang TUHAN tulah berikan. even for sleeping without distractions is one of the blessing. i need to pay more attention to that area :) see ya in my next post!