It
started off when I took a semester break from my university. During my break, I
decided to brave myself auditioning for BA’13. I looked it up online and tried
to find out more about the audition through twitter. I asked my friend, Kristianus
to come go with and audition together as well. I couldn’t remember the exact
date but I participated on the first day of audition. I lined up and waited for
couple of minutes to get auditioned. At the very first glance, I thought the
audition was going to be all loud and showcasing talent and time-consuming. But
it turned out to be all the other way around. I was asked by one of the
management of the mall about some general questions and pretty much direct
questions. Right after being questioned, he asked me to catwalk around the
stage. The audition took only about five minutes. It left me feeling pretty
doubtful.
A
week later, there went the announcement for the top 60 semifinalist. The
announcement was published in twitter and the semifinalist got called up by the
officials as well. It was hella nerve-wrecking for me. I didn’t want to put up
high expectations but I wasn’t going to lie that I was very anxious. I was at
the gym at that time. I kept refreshing the timeline in twitter until my bb battery
drained. I was exactly in angkot on the way back to my home and then my other
phone rang. I hardly recognized the number but I was going to pick up anyway.
BOOM. It’s from the official of BA’13. She (the operator) congratulated me for
I was selected as one of the semifinalist of BA’13 that later would have
semifinal round in Botani Square.
I couldn’t contain my happiness. All I could ever think about was jumping from
my seat knowing how much this overwhelmed me. I haven’t talked to anyone except
my friend about me auditioning. It was pretty EXCITING.
The day of the semifinal round arrived. Each contestant was
required to do the question-answer session and talent-show session. I hated
when someone I knew watching me in the stage. I was much more confident if I
had to do this on my own. I meant there would be no embarrassment if only
strangers saw me. I chose presenting to be my talent. Easy peasy breezy pick.
We did a little rehearsal before getting in to the real semifinal round. The
semifinal began to start. I remembered I was on the 40ish turn to get up on the
stage. It was so numbingly long to wait all people being questioned and my eyes
went teary (due to the unoccupied glasses) I remembered I was being asked by
Kang Edy Bingky (I didn’t know whether I correctly wrote off the correct name
or not) about the importance of an attitude in this kind of competition. I
answered very smoothly but it wasn’t hitting the point I could see anyone
getting so bored on the whole thing. The exact same thing went for my talent
show. I was on the line with several people in the stage and one of the judges
which was namely famous supermodel Emmy Chaniago called out the line was the
most boring out of all. She even spilled out that it made her doze off on the
entire thing. Truth to be told, I was crushed on the stage. My high hopes just
fell of to the lowest place on earth. I just wanted to runaway and lock myself
up in the bathroom, I was exaggeratingly embarrassed with no apparent reason
(D’OH) I kept on assuring myself that I thought I did what I needed to do. I
needed to stop being so hard on myself. I went home with head held high.
On the next days, I as always anxiously waited for the
announcement of the finalist. They said on twitter the selected finalist would
get called out and would be participating in workshop and of course grand
final. I was pessimistic and wishful at the same time. I kept on beating myself
because I knew that I should have done better. Until I got a call telling me
that I was on the top 30 FINALIST OF BOTANI AMBASSADOR 2013. It was mixed
feelings and my mom was there when I got the call. I could not have been any
happier than this. People might take these things very lightly but I knew that
this was one of a lifetime opportunity. I should not take things for granted.
In fact, I couldn’t.
I had to go through two days of workshop. I was so pumped up
for the workshop because I knew that I would be having a definite blast being
taught by the professionals. The line-up guests were pretty interesting. There
were Mr. Edmund Daniel, Emmy Chaniago, lovely Mas Yudhistira, and Mas Agung
from Bentuk Management. They were pro in their own fields. I just soaked it up
all the knowledge and lectures that were nicely given by them. I got to know
each and every one of the finalist. They were incredibly talented and amazing.
Some of them had been doing this kind of thing a lot. Some might have had a
really impressive experience in an entertainment industry. I was forever
grateful to be surrounded by these people. I was also glad that the judges saw
something in me that I never thought I had. Coming from a really painful
childhood and not having people like you the way you wanted to be was sometimes
the biggest obstacle for me to gain confidence. I was so scared all the time.
This just proved to me that I am capable of anything as long as I put my heart
and determination in to it.
The grand final had finally approached. I prepped all the
routine, the material for the question and answer and all the costumes needed.
I didn’t push myself too hard because at the end of the day, I thought winning
was just a bonus. It was a very life-changing experience for me to be even
chosen as the finalist of BA’13. Everything was picture-perfect and the
announcement finally came. It would be a lie if there wasn’t a tiny wishful
wanting to get called out as a winner. But I tried to let go and didn’t put
high expectations. THEN, I got called out to receive the title of The Most
Fashionable 2013. It was an attribute title and I was just so happy that I
wouldn’t go home empty handed. I was beyond elated and it finally paid off
after battling through beating myself and confidence crisis. I made it. It’s
just a living proof that I could do things that I never imagined. I truly
believe that the key of success is the combination of determination, dedication
and discipline. Pray as well because God will definitely help you every step of
the way.
Here’s the list of the winner:
Botani Ambassador
2013 : Ivan Henry and Suprata
Annisa
1st Runner Up :
Abdy Azwar and Nabilla Lendy
2nd Runner Up :
Bayu Adhitama and Maria Eveline
The Most Intelligent :
Whida Roshitama
The Most Talented :
Risal Alfiansyah
The Most Fashionable :
ME – Daniel Samuel
The Best Catwalk :
Deddy P. and Dini Mega
The Best Photogenic :
Rheza Rahman and Nhattira Aurellia
Most Favorite :
Imam Alfarabhy and Karina Oktavia
