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“I know that life has taught me real hard to stay grounded and down-to-earth. I never perceive myself to be satisfied for achieving something and I honestly I have maintained to stay starved and always take everything as a precious experience. I never take anything for granted. I understand that I can not be the person of who I am without these people who are always there. I can’t be Daniel Samuel without those never-ending encouragements, supports and sage advices. I am always thirst when it comes to learning. I don’t want people to look at me as a very cocky, stuck-up person. I’ve always humbled all I am in order to be up.”

“It’s like we’ve been hearing the same old preach and it doesn’t feel anything anymore. It gets numb. It binds all the uncaged inspiration and admirable charisma.”

“I keep doing all these shits for other people until I wake up I feel nothing. I am empty.” – Tifany Maxwell

“Not altering my personality for the sake of fitting in”

          I tweeted this in my personal twitter account to portray how I really felt during the last pageant I participated. I begin to understand that I always struggle to put myself in the center of society. I don’t want to be those attention-seekers who always have to say in everything and just fake it to make it. I’ve always wanted to be true to who I am and that way I can feel comfortable at the most. Most people would find it difficult to “mingle” with me because of how self-conscious I am. That is the thing. It is indeed hard to break my self-sonsciousness and I guess, people respond it negatively. I am cool to be around with but I just don’t want to put myself all out there, you know I’m saying? It’s almost inexplicable to elaborate that kind of feeling.

          I am hardly clueless why I have become so stiff in making friends and it turns out to be quite a torture for me. It is almost like I am not comfortable enough with anything, I don’t how to act, to talk or even to laugh in front of them. I mean, it’s definitely a personal issue and I wouldn’t blame anyone to take the guilt. It is so confusing to know that I go through this kind of issue when in fact during the first pageant I joined , I earned “The Best Congeniality”. It just hits me real hard to have known this. I know that these couple of months, I don’t socialize much and i spend most of my times in home, scribbling, surfing the internet, tweeting and all that pretty self-involved activites. By encountering this, I gather the urge to get this problem solved. I need to get back and be a normal social person. Hashtag POUW!